Ponder..

Not gonna lie, I feel like i look pretty sharp.

I literally just got back home from ‘Senior Sunset’ and decided to get right to it and write while all my thoughts and feelings are still raw.

Shits hitting me every time I go to a ‘my last’ type of event. I know I’m gonna miss high school. I don’t miss the work load yet, but I have a feeling I will in the future. 

I fuckin love high school. I love the love people show me. I don’t know half the kids that approach me and acknowledge my accomplishments, but I love it. I’m not trying to be cocky. Lemme just bask in the ‘local celebrity’ high school shit for just a moment and I’ll go back to being humble. My homie was hella drunk at the senior sunset and he was rambling about how he wants to see me make movies and be in films in the future. Kids were asking me when my documentary was gonna be finished and if I’m gonna have a screening party. Kids be telling me to make a movie for our senior class and sell that shit for $$$. People are willing to by these homemade movies from me? Freal? I’m honored. I’m humbled to hear that I’ve inspired people. I love hearing that I made people FEEL. It’s crazy to find out I actually affected a mass amount of peoples’ emotions whether it be making them laugh, think, or cry. I love how people tell me they are amazed with my work. I’m stoked knowing that I can make people happy doing the things that make me happy. Whenever I danced, whenever I wrote, whatever skits and videos I produced, everything I put into LVHS’ 10’-11’ yearbook, I was able to put a smile on someones face, or bring encouragement and new insights to people. I feed off of all the compliments and props I get for what I do. It isn’t my main goal to get daps for everything I do though. It just encourages me. I fuckin love it. I made high school my stage. It’s sad knowing it’s time to let the curtains drop.

I’m proud of myself for doing my high school years the way I did. I wouldn’t go back and change a thing. Prolly some of my academic achievements, but whatever yaknow? As for the social aspects of high school. I am satisfied. I did everything I was capable of doing. Sometimes I felt overwhelmed with what I stacked myself with, but in the end I find myself with no regrets. 

I’d like to thank everyone who has supported me. Who has encouraged me to keep doing what I’m doing. Everyone who I have encountered along the way. You guys have influenced me directly and indirectly. I want to make my family, my friends, and strangers proud. It’s not my intention to blow up and become famous or some shit like that. However, I do want to be known as a genuine person. Paradoxical? Fuck it. Before I leave Vegas, I will make my mark. Nah, I wanna tear Vegas a new asshole. Then it’s on to the next.

Don’t sleep.

It wasn’t the most epic senior prank, but gottdamn did I make the most of it. We tore Vegas a new asshole and gave it enough toilet paper to wipe itself.